So it began in the shower like so many of my masturbation sessions do. Lathering up, thinking about the day ahead. Once I get below the waist and scrubbing my little landing patch of pubes with my vanilla scented body wash I feel a little stubble and grab the razor. I like to keep myself nice and smooth from knees to waist now. My clitty always gets aroused when I do this, I like to start at the base of it, get that nice and smooth, then working down between my legs, squatting down to get easy access between the cheeks to be sure my pussy is nice and smooth all around, then make sure my thighs and hips are fully shaved. By this time, I’m totally worked up. I get rinsed off real good, no soap left, just me, the hot water and my smooth sissy parts. What I usually do next, with my face turned to the side and pressed against the shower wall and the hot water running down my backside, I spread my cheeks and finger my sissyhole until I’m relaxed and can get at least a couple fingers in and imagine how nice it would be to have a man come up behind me and enter me… my clitty stick is now nice and stiff at this point and needs some lube for stroking, so I take the first two fingers of my left hand and start to suck on them, going deeper and deeper until I’ve got them down the back of my throat and am starting to gag. This really turns me on, this is part of the training that my Goddess has taught me. I hold the fingers in as far and as long as I can as I’ve been instructed to do. This gets me drooling and spitting into my other hand so I can rub and stroke my little clitty dick. The whole time I have my eyes closed and imagine things such as the few times when I’ve had an actual man’s cock in my mouth at the porn shop glory holes a few years ago, then I also imagine that I have a beautiful feminine body, I rub my breasts and pinch my nipples, I suck my fingers, gag, spit, stroke, finger, pinch, and just get myself as worked up as I can trying to always have something in my mouth, alternating between two and three fingers and sometimes just curling up my index finger and sucking and flicking my tongue under it as though it’s the stiff tip of a cock in my mouth, mmmm, I love this. By now I’m totally worked up and almost ready to explode. So I stop and prolong. Next I get out and dry off. I’m usually dripping a bit of precummies so I’m gathering those and licking my fingers and loving the taste.
Once I’m dry I go and prepare a spot to kneel at the foot of my bed. I grab my 8″ dildo and suck on it and deep throat it as much as I can until I’m again gagging and drooling. Oh my Goddess how I love doing this. By now I’m totally worked up, my little clitty is so aroused and dripping and I’ve got the dildo drenched in my spit and I work it into my tight little sissy boi hole. Mmm, getting it in a little bit more and more, squatting down and lifting up, a bit deeper and deeper until it’s all the way in. Now, my clitty does tend to get a little bit softer during this but it’s fully dripping and I’m scooping it up off the tip and licking my fingers and imagining i’m licking the cum from the tip of a cock. Again, eyes closed, focusing on imagining I have a beautiful feminine body, smooth hairless thighs, smooth all around my pussy, so wet and so enjoying riding the big D, thinking of all the teachings and hearing my Goddess’ voice in my head telling me to repeat my sissy mantra, “i’m a sissy faggot, i love to eat cum for goddess, i like to be on my knees, i love to eat cum for goddess, i daydream about cocks, i love to eat cum for goddess, i need a cock in my mouth, i love to eat cum for goddess, i love to eat cum for goddess, i love goddess…” and I hear Goddess Lana in my mind saying, “You like saying those things? Of course you do. Good boi, vinny is a good sissy boi faggot. Are you ready Vinny, are you ready to explode baby?” and it’s at this point I’m totally imagining my man is ready to cum in my ass pussy and so I grab my little cum catching cup, give my sissy stick a few good squeezing strokes, rub my sissy bitch tits, pinching my nipples, bouncing and gyrating on the cock, sucking my cummy fingers of my right hand now and the tip of my cock lightly rubbing the rim of my cup as I slowly cum, ooze my sweet sissy cummies into the cup, it’s not an exploding orgasm but an all over body euphoria originating from my faggot pussy filled with alpha male cock, i’m groaning and moaning and leaking all my cummies into the cup and lowering my sissy little tushy as low as i can onto the big cock inside me as the last bit drips out, still my eyes shut deep in a hypnotic state imagining Goddess’ voice saying, “Now eat it up, lick up your cummies and let it slowly slide down the back of your throat…” and with a tongue coated in my yummy sissy juice i say, “Thank You Goddess”, as i sit up a bit, letting the cock slide slowly out of me as I swallow my reward, my prize for being such a well trained sissy slut. I lean over and lay back on the floor, eyes still closed hands gliding all around my smooth freshly shaven nether regions savoring the taste and the humming joy my entire body is feeling.